First post in months..

Well....

I am a horrible blogger..

Enough said. 




In new news.

I have a beautiful adorable special new puppy who has very much become a huge part of my life and my heart. Her name is cinnamon and my days are so complete with her. I spend a lot of time home alone and she makes that time so much better. 

I definitely post about her on Facebook and Instagram a lot and talk about her all the time, but i can't help it. She's just amazing. :) 

More soon, I promise!!!!

Anger.....and a revelation

So this post is something hard to share. But I need to share.

I have felt NOTHING but anger for over a year and a half. 

Anger.....

Anger at God...

Anger at God for taking my mom away from me when I still should have had many more memories to make with her. 

My anger at God has not allowed me to enjoy any of the amazing things in my life. 

My anger at God has not allowed me to have a relationship with him.

My anger at God has killed my joyful spirit.

My anger at God has brought a heavy depression in my life that for many many months I have not been able to shake.

My anger at God nearly ended my own life.

My anger at God has made me a bitter and mean person.



Today..........

I am letting go of that anger.


Watching church this morning, I had a revelation. Pastor Mark McClelland made a comment that changed my vision. 

His wife is battling breast cancer and he made the comment that "God makes no mistakes. His hand is over this."

My mom passing away so suddenly, was not a mistake. God had/has a plan in this. He didn't take my mom away as a punishment. He didn't take her away to make myself and my family miserable.

I don't see God's plan in this. But I do realize, that this was no mistake and I have no reason to be angry. Instead, I should rejoice that God is holding my hand and holding my heart and someday, I WILL see her again. 

Letting go of that anger is like a huge weight has been lifted off of my body and my life. Maybe now, I can move on. He is the Great Healer and I trust that He can heal my heart and my pain. 

SPCA

I have a bit of a fun addiction of going to the SPCA and playing with the cats and dogs. I want nothing more than to adopt every single one of them. 

I think my ultimate goal in life is to work with animals. Hopefully I can do that someday!!! 

Crazy Busy Week

This week was one of those weeks where I was too busy to truly enjoy anything. 

I've been working on a project at work. We are starting this program called a "pick-list" which in merchandise basically means its a computerized stock program. Instead of making your own stock list, a computer generates one for you based on that location's sales. 

Well, my job lately has been preparing our stockrooms for this change. This requires building the shelving and moving everything into a true SKU order. Boring, I know. And keeps me super busy. 

So I have been putting in a lot of hours at work due to this project. I have a couple of days left of it.

However, today is my day off and I am going to kick back, relax and truly enjoy it.



In other news: I have a new addiction. ETSY. I have been buying things like crazy on there. Some for me (for my wedding) but most of it, gifts for other people.

I also opened an ETSY store for my crochet projects. :) My store name is hippycrochet. Go check it out! (SHAMELESS PLUG!)

Migraines Galore

I have been struggling with migraines most of my life but the last 8 months or so, they have truly gotten worse.

The last week has been the worst one yet. I actually had to leave work early today because my migraine was making me nauseous and I could barely even see straight. 

I have been to specialists and nobody has an answer for me. 

I just wish this would all go away sometime soon. :(

3rd Wedding Venue Review: Paradise Cove

The third wedding venue we went to visit and tour was Paradise Cove. It is on 535 and it is right on Little Lake Bryan. 

And we are proud to announce that we will be getting married here!! We put our deposit down and we have an official wedding date of March 15, 2015! 

This place was beautiful and just so much fun! There were so many fun aspects of the location and we are so excited for it! 

The pricing was great, they allow pets, and we can have more guests than originally planned!

I only took one photo because I want the rest of it to be a surprise for our guests! :) 

2nd wedding venue review: Bok Tower Gardens

So the second wedding venue location we went to see was Bok Tower Gardens in Lake Mary, Florida. 

LOVED this venue. It was GORGEOUS! The architecture was phenomenal and the gardens were so pretty. Rita (the wedding coordinator) showed us picture of what it looks like in springtime which is when we are getting married and it had so many flowers!

The pictures really speak for themselves for this one. They were not pet friendly which made me sad. It was also a little pricier than what we were going for.